Surrender

I am not fighting anymore

These words are transcribed from a voice recording that I posted at the end of the piece What is Grace? 

So maybe that is where surrender comes from…

Surrender cause you know the fighting and the resistance takes so much energy…

Its draining.

To maintain that place…

To maintain that stance…

So it is in that,

Grace comes from this place of being tired of fighting.

Tired of resisting.

Tired of battling yourself.

Ah…

Tired of fighting the demons- the victim identity, lack of self worth, self violence, self hatred, comparison…

Surrender is holding up a mirror to all of those things and saying I see you,

You have been brought to light, I thought you were the truth, but now I know that you are not.

You gave me a good run. I really believed you.

Now that I know,

I KNOW.

And there is no going back!

Smiling,

Sara