this came to me just now

It came to me just now, how, when I am in self doubt and worry, I give up… give over my control… my own power to some one or some thing.

When this happens, I am moving away from love towards a place of fear.  Fear of not being liked, accepted, maybe even being in trouble.

And that is why I seek external validation and feedback.

So I can find out where I stand.

So I know

If am still in good standing.

If I haven’t alienated myself.

If I am still accepted.

If I still belong.

If I am still liked.

Life, she offers me gifts so I can to see.

To see what I could have not ever dreamed.

Really though, what does it matter?

What does it matter what someone thinks?

I am living life. Being me.

Growing

Learning

Evolving

What else is there to do?

Loving the freedom to be me,

Sara